The modern day makoti

I am only just 32 years of age and I already feel like I have been through some challenges as a wife, mother and an 8 to 5 employee. Today is the 6th of April 2021. Dear diary I am tired from working from home, I am over worked and under appreciated. I miss driving in my car and being stuck in Sandton traffic for a change just to allow myself to breathe before and after work. The pandemic has really taken away so much from me as a working mother who doesn't have a social life. Lord knows how I sometimes miss my colleagues, now it all makes sense why I have realised the importance of being able to strike a balance between work and personal life. Now I sit in one room at home in virtual meetings and checking my son's timetable so that he doesn't miss his class. With my 4 year old daughter who I don't know what to do with whose entire vocabulary is built by YouTube kids. Without the traffic I knock off at 5pm if not 6pm and I must prepare Dinner and tidy up my house so forgive me if you show up at my house unannounced I'm a busy.

It's tough sometimes my anxiety builds up and I breakdown, not even my husband knows what to do with me when I've reached a point of hopelessness. My duty to my husband and children is mostly important to me hence I push hard everyday and can't afford to disappoint them.  Every morning I wake up feeling optimistic and I try again. Dear diary we thank God for our lives everyday and we keep moving.